soup
Eating soup. Had thoughts heating it up.
It was so sudden because I thought we had reached a good place. The fear of you leaving seemed to have faded. The secrecy was still a problem but that was gonna resolve somehow.
Feeling like an unwanted thing. Guilty. Unsightly. The more hidden away the better.
Last month was easier because I thought you missed me. By being quiet, I made you miss me more. Now I think I'm just a problem.
Coffee and smoothie now.