re-focusing
finding little pockets of focus. they feel good and that feeling lasts for a bit but then it dissipates. i feel broken.
i don't see a path forward. i don't see myself completing anything.
i couldn't help but share your despair after reading your poem.
i tried lying in bed in silence for a while. to dissipate the fear and anxiety.
im always listening to something. i have to stop that. it is so hard to stop.
i dont know if writing in here or discord is a way of hijacking screentime for the better or if it would be better to go offscreen completely. there is something more frictionless in here.
something about hitting post/enter feels good. i cant take notes in obsidian. i take a few and they never form into something. here at least im completing something however small.
re-focusing little by little.