low maintenance mode
every hour is different
lost one to twitter earlier
it was bliss losing consciousness
but it was also like taking a piss
got some annoying desktop notifications but every time i thought it was you so i left them on to keep going
like a steady drip of your presence
took a bit for my body to realize you weren't there
why was this so much easier last month?
i knew you were busy. it's always easier when i know that
it was like an experiment. how long could i keep quiet? how long could i not think about it?
now it's just reality
i'm in extreme denial